Had a moderately alright first day back. Hmm but tonight a really felt like piss from the start of studytime. After studytime i went for a run which was totally jackcrap cos again i really feel my legs shrinking in muscle mass and my timings all getting lousier. But i loved the rain on the way back though

Anyway i think i was in a worse mood just now cos of my critique. Which is done btw. Or maybe is cos i finished the critique that i'm not in a bad mood anymore... Blah thankfully i blogged now if i had done this later i think it'd be a much more unhappy post.

Idunno i still feel a bit irritable nowadays and very irritatable when i think about theory which is totally starting to kick the shit out of me. I can give excuses but in the end theres no use anyway.. Rahh. Damned theory. Damn that i cant really get it.
But in the end its still part of taking music. Chamber, grade 5, grade8, theory, solo recital. Well, chambers almost over (hope we get through!), grade5 done (and proud of it), grade8 sax in the early stages of shaping up, theory well i dunno, and ms natalia has already started thinking about my recital.
Yeah i guess.. many ups and many more downs (or so it seems) but. Lets say i didnt take music.. I think i wouldve really regretted it.

Time for bed. And tomorrow, i'll wake up with a smile (:
posted by halfpastfour- at 1:46 AM [edit]